What should I do with myself?

The only way you will find peace is by looking in yourself. My ideas and goals almost certainly differ from yours. I, personally, would choose to stay in college and find a job I am interested in, but if you can't stand studying, you would likely not enjoy completing tour education. With that said, you will probably get a higher-paying job if you go to college. It all depends on your personality and goals and what you want.